no christmas for me, as always, cause my parents don't celebrate xmas. but why do i still feel so sad when this time of the year comes? 
worst part = no presents.

oh wells! 
merry xmas one and all 
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 oh great, uh my cousin is in the hospital too.
=(

 omg omg omg, i just talked to my aunt who will be going to have her operation in 10 mins! 
she's so scared her voice is wobbly when she talks,
i feel bad not being by her side right now,
going to pray for her <3 
i'm sure she'll be okay, 
she must.

 credits to underage girl (blogger):




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What did you grow up living with?

 got this from yahoo news,
TOKYO (AFP) - - Health experts have long warned of the risk of obesity, but a new Japanese study warns that being very skinny is even more dangerous, and that slightly chubby people live longer.

so do i live longer or not!!

this is such a contradiction lol. (for me at least)

reality finally struck me,
school reopens
AFTER NEXT WEEK!!!!

omg omg omg omg omg omg.
i have so much homework left i hardly did anything the past few weeks. 

i better do now before i start going into..
PANIC MODE.

heh went to polo club today to check out the place, was suppose to plan something but thanks to the rest who either overslept or could not come i was the only one who went to meet josephine. !@£$%^& not angry or anything but if no one is serious about this i might as well drop this plan. 
well anw the place was awesome and the horses/ponies were just gorgeous. met some ppl and watched some amazing jumps by the pros. =) 

now that i have two tuition classes, i have two times the amount of homework i have to do. not to mention school homework too. seriously, this hols is starting suck bad.

 ughh i am so not looking forward to tmr??! 
i guess i'm the only loser that has lesson from 8-12.30 tmr T_T
well i guess i deserve it, since i didnt do well during MYE .
=| 

A-math+E-math+chemistry = HELL. 

 i am such a big fat loser.

my parents are at china now. ugh i'm afraid that china would get infected with the H1N1 virus -.- then they will be quarantined ? haha.

anw, i seriously cant wait for exams to end. the past few papers is really crap. really, really screwed. 
its not like i didn't study, i really mugged damn hard k. thats why it affected me this much, i'm stressed like shyt now.
not to mention the very day my parents went to china, they even made time to go sign me up for math tuition.
like fuck. i hate hate hate that tuition centre, the teacher cant even speak proper english. i tried to explain to my mum but she just wouldnt listen. 
i feel that not only tuition is a waste of time, its giving me so much more pressure. i seriously feel like giving up, sometimes i ask myself why i am studying so hard for. my life and many others are revolved around school, tests and exams. is it all worth it in the end? study like hell, and in the end its still the same outcome. fail, fail, fail. even if you reached your target, parents will be asking for more, demanding better results. 
ouch, thats all i can say.

 sheesh i really dont wanna go to my grandparents house, there is absolutely nothing to do there all i do is stone? heh. =( i basically dont have any choice cause my grandma seems to be calling every 2 hours to remind me to come cause usually i'm the only one who stays home when they got to her house. its not that i dont enjoy going there but seriously, MYE is like round the corner and i havent even do any revision yet. T__T
anw, house results r out. grats to michelle and emma=) i got what i wanted so i have no complaints. 
ugh, okay i gtg now..

 thats it. its over, game over.

 even if its just infatuation, its still wrong.

update*
heh e math was crap, i think i totally got angle of elevation and depression wrong. 
oh yes, i know exactly what i want for my birthday,
its not a psp
its not an ipod,
its something even better
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=) 

scalded my finger; its hurting like ****.

ouch.

 for like weeks and weeks now, i'm finally, truly, really happy =)
cause 
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 I GOT MY SUJU ALBUM!!!!!!!!! 
yesh finally!

super happy and high right now. thanks soo much eileena! probably could have died waiting for the suju album to be sold in s'pore. seriously sorry sorry is like the best album i ever, even compared to other artistes i adore =) no kidding, its worth every cent. usually i would regret buying the album but sorry sorry? not one bit babe

there are like a billion pics inside, but i will not reveal any, let you guys discover by yourselves how god-like they could be. seriously they are FLAWLESS. 
and and and and and...
i got a free poster from eileena too!
heh i like it soo much i decided to get another poster. hehe. have to pay lah, of course. (its $8 get it from eileena if u want) x)

i love it to bits, 

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 really glad EARTH HOUR has arrived! whoo i'm typing in the dark right now, can barely see the keys hahaha. i lighted some candles around the house so now it has a warm romantic feel to it. x)
heh but not in peaceful mood now cause the stupid neighbours are pissing me off. could you imagine. everyone else's place are in darkness, then one stupid annoying nieghbour does not participate in it just spoils the whole thing.